Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I struggle

I struggle. 
When I struggle, it hurts.
When it hurts, I turn it off. 
Turn off my emotions.
Depression is hard.
Perfectionism is harder.

When I struggle to be perfect, I turn in the opposite direction.
Try to lose weight, I gain.
Try to do my best at work, I get criticized.
Try to be a good mom, and a good wife.... I can only hope.
Try not to give up, I cant give up. 
Its not an option.
People depend on me. People believe in me.
People love me. I love them.

I struggle.
When I struggle, it hurts.

This is my 100 word entry for @velvetverbosity 100 word challange.

10 comments:

  1. I love you because you try. Being imperfect is what makes you perfect to me.

    great job

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  2. Wonderful entry. Sending love to you. Perfectionism is one of the most debilitating things in the world. ((hugs))

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  3. I know these feelings quite well. Lovely expression of them.

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  4. Wow.... I felt like you were speaking to me, and yet I could hear the uniqueness of your voice. Very nice, thank you.

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  5. Why do we doubt and struggle so... a lot of us are our own worst enemy, great write.

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  6. It is all that anyone can ever ask of another. Trying and failing our part of life. Well said.

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  7. Beautifully written. I think you captured so well what so many of us feel.

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  8. I usually skip the poems, but this one drew me in right away! Beautifully written and oh so true!

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  9. I think this can easily relate to us all. In varying degrees these feeling abound.

    Great job!

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  10. thank you for struggling through the pain. Great entry. Trusting life does not hurt so much this week.

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